My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.







My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.


Now that people are starting to make what I believe is an odd distinction between "navel gazing" and "real business" to support yet another attempt to get Ecademy "off the ground" (about the 20th such initiative I have seen) I find myself wondering why I am apparently wasting my time here, causing annoyance and getting barely any response (compared to over 1000 views and over 20 comments that was my norm in Ecademy's long passed heyday when it was fun to be here). Indeed, I find myself wanting to explain what I have been trying to say instead of just shouting against the wind at people who do not want to get it or cannot get it (there is an it to get).

So here goes; the definitive explanation:


Please remind yourself now that you do not have to agree and that I never debate (which I am willing to explain if asked, but it's philosophically complex). You are welcome to ask meaningful questions but I will not respond to controlling gibes, or patronising sarcasm and I will hide all cruel attacks.

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
Signifying nothing. — Macbeth (Act 5, Scene 5, lines 17-28)


This resembles my core belief, the knowledge of which I am certain, derived from a lifetime of studying literature, philosophy, every psychological theory you can think of, mesmerism, human behaviour and the thoughts of Werner Erhard of EST fame when he wasn't being a slimy salesman (which was rare).

What this means is that I believe we are all acting, which amounts to pretending, that the primary purpose of every thought, every theory, every behaviour and every personality trait is to promote, maintain and justify what we loosely call the ego, which is not precisely how Freud coined the word. In other words, none of what you think you are is you at all, not in all your humanity with all your real talents. If it were the world would already be a far better place. All you have now is fake humanity, pretend talents and pathetic problems to solve based on not keeping your word and not being real. Sorry about that, but you're hopelessly lost, every single one of you and the more lost you are the more crazy will sound what I am saying. Particularly those suits who think they have the world by the throat.

Furthermore I believe that there is only one step to escape this total slavery to self-image, which amounts basically to laughing at yourself, in depth, until it becomes your basic world, until you realise that we are all complete a**holes, until you see that we do not love, connect, communicate or support each other, not in the slightest, not until we completely break out of the box of total self-interest.

From my perspective, not one single person on Ecademy or any other online platform I have haunted, created, been banned from or infuriated the denizens of, and this includes even you my friend of eight years, not one single person who really knows that they do not know, who really gets that reality is not the self-justifying fantasies in their head… and that there is of course a reality - not just what you happen to choose to want, which is an impossible conceit you believe.

So when I read or hear people talking about love, about business, about sharing, about forming expert teams to save the world, about caring for the planet and oozing mystical peace - it simply makes me squirm, all of it. I give nothing I read any credence whatsoever except the occasional insight from KT who is psychic but off the rails, the occasional jokey post from DS and what the brilliant Swedish girl writes. The rest, to me, is neither mature, nor coherent, nor informed, nor professional, nor witty, nor even interesting. It is simply naïve, grandiose, immature, arrogant, falsely nice and in many cases downright overbearing (and this isn't just the crude American blogvertorials I am referring to; it is how I feel about 98% of what appears here or anywhere else). It simply is not evolved. When I read about expert teams or anything written by the so-called thought leaders of Ecademy it simply makes me shudder, the exact same way the thoughts of Chairman Mao in the mouths of middle class brats made me shudder in 1968. It has all made me shudder, always. I believe it is all a garbage, snake-oil ideology that hooks in desperate punters who are playing at being entrepreneurs (most of you) and that nobody with a great business idea would blog about it, share it or invite snoopy questions from people who might try to copy it. Success does not work like that. It is not shared. Thomas does not share his income with you and he does not pay you for building his business. Only one person profits, which is basically how all business works. If you think that happy-clappy, sparkling, sharing, boardroom, global teams and initiatives and positive thinking from hysterical optimist in the Low Countries will get you anywhere at all, you are simply dreaming and wasting your life. To me, effectively, you have detached from reality and cancelled your vote. I can have no respect for you, as you have none for me but are afraid to admit.

Contrary to what manipulative bullies say about me I am neither twisted not unhappy about my life, despite having been genetically cursed beyond your very worst nightmares and then some… so the causation of my strange ideas is way beyond your pay grade. I am too real, too intelligent and too much forced to battle real problems with actual solutions to live in your fantasy world. There are others who think like me but they are very rare and mostly long dead. I do not exist for my own benefit alone. I am trying to change life. I do not care whether you like or respect me. I am truly trying to help you evolve out of your self-centred box, whoever you are, because there is no aspect of crippled or false ego that I cannot see and penetrate.

I am hoping to persuade people to think again about investing their selves in
money, in power, in beauty, in problems, in illness, in therapy, in NLP, in religion or ethnicity of gender, in poverty and rebellion, in leadership and success, in psychobabble, in addictions, in cleverness, in sparkling personality, in business acumen, in knowledge, in anything you like really, even motherhood and caring for the refugees of the Sahara. If you ask me what I am against I would respond, like Marlon in The Wild One: "What have you got?" I am against everything until it feels genuine, which means until it is an impulse from a soul that has seen its own games and laughed to the bottom of the sea and the arc of the sky about what a joke it all is, our huge pretentions, our meek humilities, our cunning manipulations, our childish terrors and our unsatisfying achievements.

So that is why I annoy you and you despise me. I admit to finding you tiresome but I do not make ad hominem attacks of the sort that are thrown against me daily because I think it is wrong. I do not get assistance from my chums and I do not conspire with anyone in private.

It may be time for me to quit. But you do deserve an explanation and this is it. And no, you do not understand me any more than I understand you, the real you. All the above is simply the blueprint of starting to understand. It is not wisdom or humanity or love. Those follow, when there is someone actually real and present to relate to. You cannot, as you believe now, fake it till you make it. You are already faking, everything. And you do not know it. And you do not know that you do not know. Nobody can know what is the extent of what they do not know.

I am very sorry about all this. I wish life would be as easy as you'd like it to be.







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Wayne Conyers

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Loved reading this its one of the only reasons I pop my head in the door still Steve. Have been so busy with my own "vision" if that is what they are called now and that's required some energy. You should have this blog as a read this before reading anything else - And it's never changed :-)

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Robert Oosthout

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Brilliant and authentic Steve. Kind regards, Robert Oosthout.

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John Murray

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Hi Steve You and I did cross swords a couple of years back (time flies) but I have grown up since then! Like others have commented, I do wince when I read your comments, but when I strip away some of the layers, there is a lot of sense in what you say. It is just that many on here aren't too chuffed about the way you say it. I have read a lot of the comments again on here before I took my life in my hands and commented to you!! But again, I laughed out loud at many and think you too have a laugh when you make some of the comments, knowing you are pouring petrol on fire and watching many trying to put it out. I also know a lot on here would benefit greatly in business terms if you chose to help them with business advice - not the 'positivity' stuff I know you hate - but true business advice and I know that many too would also listen. I do hope you make such comments or post such blogs in the future but I must also add, reading your blogs and comments has helped me take myself less seriously too - ditto Martin above. Regards John

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John Murray

johnmurray12-703381

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

I must confess I have read every comment here today and it has been a very enjoyable 20 minutes. Yes, I do have a bit of time on my hands, here in Afghanistan at 2125 hrs. I did laugh out loud on more than one occasion. It could be serialized guys. Best wishes John

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Juntee Terrenal MA GMS

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

:-)

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RealSteveHolmes Fading away soon

cvsage-38854

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

He did it again so I disappeared him again. It was extremely satisfying and it is I think the best feature of Ecademy. If only there was a button that said: I never want to read or even hear about this individual ever again, then things would be perfect.

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Nick Ingram

nickingram-72378

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Please stop this, fools. Steve Holmes is a troll, a ringmaster who really gets off on these type of threads and their pointless responses. There is no logic in what he says, no reason, no form, just empty, spouting nonsense. He clearly is trying to make a point somewhere, and that point is that he is so superior to all you fools, you are all beneath contempt. But still you feed him. Maybe he has a point. Just leave him alone, he can only feed off your responses, and you keep doing it time after time after time. Steve Holmes is in a position where he has time on his hands and no pressure to earn a living, he does not need friends, he does not need to be liked, he just gets hard writing this guff and replies to the responses - now that's not an image you want, surely!

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LaRae Wilkins

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Steve, Isn't it necessary for people to have a certain level of consciousness in order to ascertain what it is you're actually saying?

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Helen Winder

helenwinder

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Steve, Stop with the way you address things ... it really does come across the wrong way. It becomes boring and really does not pain you or your business in the right way. Stop fighting and putting up a barrier.

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Martin Dewhurst

martin-dewhurst-30038

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Or congruent :-)

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Martin Dewhurst

martin-dewhurst-30038

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

I have to confess, I didn't read 'targets' in a conventional sense here. Mind you, I do have the benefit of some fine conversations with Steve on the phone and love him and his joie de vivre. (He said as though he was out of the room) By target, I'm a target too if ever I take myself too seriously :-) Steve has my express permission (not that he requires it) to apply to my ugly mush, a good slap with a wet fish, if ever he detects me being anything other than selfless.

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Martin Dewhurst

martin-dewhurst-30038

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Ah yes, good man he was Steve, look forward to hearing from him again :-)

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Martin Dewhurst

martin-dewhurst-30038

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

He bows humbly for resorting to the indulgent Zen Art of copy and paste ... Kitano Gempo, abbot of Eihei temple, was ninety-two years old when he passed away in the year 1933. He endeavored his whole life not to be attached to anything. As a wandering mendicant when he was twenty he happened to meet a traveler who smoked tobacco. As they walked together down a mountain road, they stopped under a tree to rest. The traveler offered Kitano a smoke, which he accepted, as he was very hungry at the time. "How pleasant this smoking is," he commented. The other gave him an extra pipe and tobacco and they parted. Kitano felt: "Such pleasant things may disturb meditation. Before this goes too far, I will stop now." So he threw the smoking outfit away. When he was twenty-three years old he studied I-King, the profoundest doctrine of the universe. It was winter at the time and he needed some heavy clothes. He wrote his teacher, who lived a hundred miles away, telling him of his need, and gave the letter to a traveler to deliver. Almost the whole winter passed and neither answer nor clothes arrived. So Kitano resorted to the prescience of I-King, which also teaches the art of divination, to determine whether or not his letter had miscarried. He found that this had been the case. A letter afterwards from his teacher made no mention of clothes. "If I perform such accurate determinative work with I-King, I may neglect my meditation," felt Kitano. So he gave up this marvelous teaching and never resorted to its powers again. When he was twenty-eight he studied Chinese calligraphy and poetry. He grew so skillful in these arts that his teacher praised him. Kitano mused: "If I don't stop now, I'll be a poet, not a Zen teacher." So he never wrote another poem.

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Phillip Khan-Panni

PKP

I'm puzzled

I entirely understand and accept your stance, but do feel your one inconsistency is the belief that you need to explain yourself. Isn't that paradoxical? Only asking. PKP

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Clive Eplett

cliveeplett-656327

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

'no apologies...' Why should you apologise when you are one of the hen's teeth few who make me think about and perhaps even see things differently?

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Daniel Priestley

danielpriestley-111581

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Please note... this blog got about 1000 views and 50 comments in under 24 hours Steve. Maybe your writing just got a bit droll and now you have found your authentic voice you are back in the game. ;)

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RealSteveHolmes Fading away soon

cvsage-38854

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Thanks for such a long and useful comment, Andy. I get the feeling from the responses here is that once again what people do with objectionable ideas is go into denial about them. In this case only Stan has been utterly authentic by getting nasty. I feel somewhat neutralised when so many people start agreeing because it feels to me that they don't get what I am saying, which is that no single element of their current life is valid, or even authentically themselves. That they already know this and never act on it seems rather odd to me.

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Andy Pope

andrew-dpope-652330

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Steve Well put blog - your writing style is blunt and very straightforward which makes for a very effective message - good stuff. Humans generally operate on automatic when communicating and we rely on learnt behavioural "modules" or schema (from a very early age) to deal with life and others. Quite often these do not work and we have communication difficulties as both parties are using these schema and their own automatic assumptions, stereotypes, generalisations, etc... Messy. You are right about the ego - almost all of our behaviour is designed to allow us to maintain our concept of "self" and to basically be right. We believe that this self-concept is writ in stone and unchanging but it actually changes second by second as we weave our life narrative into our often self-justifying self-concept. Self-serving biases abound. Only the awareness of actual reality and (much more importantly) a desire to apply conscious effort to change what we believe, say and do will bring about any sort of beneficial change. This conscious effort to change often needs guidance and advice from someone who has been there to bear fruit otherwise it can be one step forward two back - I'm not talking about coaching here - I'm talking about simply providing knowledge and training in critical thinking skills. This is where the problems start - by far the greater majority of people are unaware and will likely never be aware - you are chipping away like a good 'un but it will be a never ending struggle. These people will read what you say but likely just ignore you. Some people will get what you and others say but will be too scared to do anything about it and simply rationalise things away and carry on regardless. These people will sometimes bristle and bite back but will generally deliberately ignore you. Some people become aware (either they discover or are taught) of both their and other's reality blindness and automatic, repeatable and triggerable behaviours. They use this to their advantage. They have vested interests and will likely be unwilling to change as a result - these people will either attack you outright or possibly worse - appear to be overly friendly. You seem well aware of this group so 'nuff said. Humans are complicated creatures and I would venture the opinion that most are genuinely just trying to get along the best they can given the knowledge they have. The real goal is to try and get the message and the solution out there and see who is really listening and receptive. Make changing more attractive than staying the same and more success will result - more happiness and reality will be the result. Keep blogging - keep trying. Andy Pope Eryr Glas

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Martin Dewhurst

martin-dewhurst-30038

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Dashed indecent I'd say, she wrote to me too!! ;-)

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RealSteveHolmes Fading away soon

cvsage-38854

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

I did not remove the comment under Georgina's

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jenifer muar

jenifermuar-704013

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Hello dear my name is Jenifer i saw your profile in this site i be came interested to have you as my friend, please if you do not mind you contact me on my private email address (muar.jenifer@yahoo.com) so that i can give you my picture and tell you more about my self. i am waiting to hear from you remember distance, colour, or lanquage does not matter but love matters a lot in life. Jenifer. ( muar.jenifer@yahoo.com )

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RealSteveHolmes Fading away soon

cvsage-38854

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Wow! So many people apparently agree with me. That's a shocker.

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John Amy - Graphic Design

johnamy

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Steve. A little question first. Why did you join Ecademy in the first place?

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Fred Rutgers

fredrutgers-186363

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

This blog leads to new insights and new thinking! I see some true and deep emotions here. Perhaps this blog should have been written ages ago! Fred

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Katie-Ellen Hazeldine

katieellenhazeldine-186355

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Off the rails I shall not dignify this, other than to say, I am very sorry you should think so.

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Stan Wright

stanwright-427001

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Hi Steve As a peerless giant on here I just had to help you with your increasing paranoia and dwindling friend pool. Having done some exhaustive research I have finally found an algorithm which will allow you to replenish that pool.. Algorithm No need to thank me; the pleasure is all mine. Stan

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Andrew Horder

andrew-horder

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

@"I am very sorry about all this. I wish life would be as easy as you'd like it to be." It is easy ... just not simple.

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William Buist

WilliamBuist

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

More of this Steve, this is adding value. Like Nic, I like a lot of what you write, but dislike much of the ways you choose to express it. I also agree with Nic that those who know they red to question and understand self before applying interpretation on the world are not lost. Like many I'll return and reread often I suspect. I often think the precursor to your quote is as important as the lines you chose..... Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow, Creeps in this petty pace from day to day, To the last syllable of recorded time; And all our yesterdays have lighted fools The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

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Alan Bowman

alanbowman-330504

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Hi Steve What more can one say but to quote Rabbie Burns "Oh that God the gift would gie us to see ourselves as others see us" Trust all goes well for you and sorry to say thanks to a business shafting this will be my last day on Ecademy as a Power Networker, not that I joined it to be that. Cheers Alan

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Nic Oliver

nicoliver

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Hi Steve, Great post, worth reading and rereading several times. Let me be sure I have it right; in summary, you are saying that most of what we experience as real is illusion because we are misled by the constructs of our ego. Therefore, we need to cultivate detachment and dig beneath the ego's constructs. If I've got it right, I agree with most of what you have written. I rarely disagree with what you say, though sometimes I have issues with how you write it. For example, you write that we are all lost. I don't believe that anyone who is prepared to do the tough work of going inside and stripping away the illusions that hide the true self is lost. Being prepared to take that step says to me that the person is far from lost. What I'm more interested in is not what you are against, but what you are for. I'd like your views on the following: in striving for detachment, how does one avoid arrogance? I sometimes struggle to make the distinction between "I won't let this affect me" and "I don't care" with the latter coming over as arrogance and a lack of sensitivity. As I wrote at the beginning, great post that I will ponder on for a long time. Kind regards Nic

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Maurice Watts, the Marketer

maurice-watts-19353

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Thank you for the explanation. One cannot 'understand' others, you and I included, one can only observe and try to make some sense of what they do. Prediction is, IMHO, illusory. Much of what you say resonates, and I for one have been struggling to separate (and hence identify and get my head round) my 'self 'and my 'roles', with varying success, because my experience is that that confusion of mixing them is harmful and unproductive for me. For all I know, others might find it helpful. Carry on the good work! Good! That's my Ego a bit quieter this morning :-) Regards Maurice

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Thomas Power

thomas-power-8

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Blimey it took 8 years.

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Martin Dewhurst

martin-dewhurst-30038

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:-)

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Lyndon Wood

Lyndon

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Hi Steve Quite funny really because you and I are actually very alike. I mean in the keeping it real sense which I have quoted several times over many years. If you ever get a chance read my book and you will see what I mean, no bull from me no theory in fact a chapter of mine is called Theory is Naff and Teams don't Work is another. Self taught from age 19 at 18 had nowhere to live and was sleeping in my rusty car for a few months. We all have had tough times one way or another and yes people are finicky and I find the whole human race fascinating and you have to adapt to each other because tomorrow we are different again depending on the mood we wake up in. Long and short, this is life, many theorists, many practical many real many false and many who go out of their way to try and destroy success but that's what makes us people embrace it work with it and help others do the same. The energy you give out is what you get back. Take care and hope we will meet one day Lyndon

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Danielle de Valera

daniellede-valera-668759

Let's All Enjoy Our Lives, Deluded or Otherwise

You don't annoy me, Steve, and I certainly don't despise you. I don't think you've got much time for me, but that's OK. What you wrote is a brilliant piece of goods. I think you sometimes underestimate people, but that's OK too. Nobody's perfect. I've been wondering about your writing lately. I hope it's going well. Without in any way trying to keep things moving :), let's all enjoy our lives, deluded or otherwise. It all comes to the same thing in the end. Aust'n poet A D Hope wrote a great poem that began; I have lost my faith the ticket tells where we are going. There are rumours the driver is mad. We are all being trucked to the abbatoirs somewhere, and unknowing We aim through the night, full speed at a wrecked viaduct. Let's at least enjoy the ride.

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Robert Craven

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Thank you, Steve, for being the RSH. RC

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Angus Whitton

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My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Steve@I do not want Ecademy to change, thanks. I think it's fine as it is No need to apologise Steve - It's nice to see your opinion is consistent. Angus

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Nick Braak

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Fred Rutgers

fredrutgers-186363

My apologies - I'd like to explain myself to you all.

Respect Steve! Perhaps now I slowly start to grasp where you are coming from! Fred

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